euphoria

cloud nine

its never been so beautiful

airy and blissful

each lemony day has been lace filled

and every moment creates an aesthetic euphoria 

happiness was never explained to me like this

no one ever said

that even the bad days

would be beautiful

in comparison to older days

what pure beauty you've given my soul

its the lovey dovey ooey gooey chick flick love

but multiply that by infinity

and sugar coat it even more than i did

the most wonderful thing in life

is this

you for me

you in this world

you loving me

you

the cloud above bliss

my heart is full
(its something i try to quit
and i'm not ever sure why
because its what i love
but here i am
again)
and as i said before
my heart is full
i always wished
for something beautiful
but i never imagined
it'd be this beautiful
darling, did you know
you've fixed every broken piece
you have lifted my soul
my heart you have filled
i have confidence
i only once dreamed of
you put the puzzle pieces together
and created a lacy heaven
for me
i am on the highest cloud
floating over pure bliss and joy
you are mine
nothing else matters so much
eternity with a man
better than my dreams created
eternity with my man
you, craig
my heart is full
because you filled it
with all its ever needed

eager

my heart is swollen with an eager excitement and anxiety
nothing like i've ever experienced before
you're constantly taking up every centimeter in my brain
opportunities have finally bowed before your diamond eyes
and you look braver
more confident
than i've ever witnessed your soul
i'm proud of you
i'm completely smitten by this side of you
the side that takes chances
the man who leaves it on the floor
willing to accept any path
any answer
any opportunity
i melt into delight thinking you're mine
all this wondfulfullness
mine
the grandest example and the bravest of heroes
my heart is wrapped around you
my brain is captivated in every inch of your being
i'm all yours
for the high times and the low times
always wishing you the highest of highs
the best of the best
everything your genuine soul deserves
i'm rooting for you, love
always on your side

clouds

a mess of sheets. piles of pillows. the melodic crinkle of fabric settling over skin, bones and muscle. one entirely exhausted appearing man. a young soul who deserves the comfort of endless feathers and cradling blankets, offering only the best form of joy and rest. the man under the covers sleeps soundly, but always aware of what surrounds the things he loves. the hardest working human the earth became privileged enough to hold as he made the most of his every day. what a steady clock, he is. an example to the rest of Gods children. a hero to many. a husband to one lucky soul. he cozies up to another fluff of softness and inhales so deeply. good morning, love. sleep as long as you'd like.

it only gets greater

you sweep me off my feet when you catch me by surprise with your lips on mine, wrapping your arms around my body, taking me home. my heart begins racing as you whisper that you love me. you, my love, are the very definition of wonderful. you're beyond it. my clothes smell like you still and i can't stop myself from smelling them - smiling. when you run your hand up and down my back, or your hands on my hips.. i can't concentrate on anything else but how fortunate i am to be here with you right here. mine. soon, mine forever and ever. i wish you could feel how i feel at night when i think about you. or maybe, hopefully, you already feel the same. this love we are in is special. full of everything absolutely spectacular. i'm in constant awe of my luck and in a daydream when i look at the beauty of your face, body and heart. you've the sweetest heart the world will ever touch. and somehow, by some miracle you loved me enough to ask me to be yours for the rest of time. to think i'll spend the rest of eternity getting swept off my feet by your loving self is overwhelmingly, captivatingly incredible. i wouldn't change a thing. we won't change a thing. i don't know how it gets better than this, but they keep telling me it only gets greater.

november

hello, its been a while. and since the last time i've spilled, my whole world has changed. my dreams i've wished for and written so often about are coming true.
its november, i tell you.
november was beautiful last year because it introduced me to the love of my life. it scattered flowers on my path and introduced me to true, true lasting love.
this november will be even better - i'm putting a label on our love. we'll call it: forever. time and all eternity.
i am marrying my best friend. 
it is so overwhelmingly beautiful. to say i'm happy, thrilled or ecstatic doesn't do this emotion justice. i am in the perfect place, i just have to wait two more lovely months for the most raw, perfect perfection. it feels long -- but i'm spending the days leading up to that white day with him. so of course i'll be alright. you don't even understand how lucky i am to have him.
i've always been living the dream..and i'm now in the real good part. the icing on the cake. the cherry on top.
oh, november.

my miracle

so many words are rocketing through me
i'm temporarily forgetting how to form legible thoughts
i'm captivated in this nine month moment
anticipating forever spent with him
its a pounding through my body
the constant reminder that he is mine
and i am his
its an inner battle
between hoping i'll always be good enough
and hoping we'll never lose the spark
praying each night to be mushy in-love
even when we're old and gray
there is a bliss in these afternoons
i am melting into him more every day
as he calms my fears
he is my miracle
the reason i am strong each morning
and confident every night
always knowing if i falter
he'll be there to stabilize me, again

so

i can't cry tonight
the glue on my eyes will run
regardless
i wish i could've poured it out for you
cups of salty tea falling down
don't ask why, please
it just feels right
i am settling in on cloud nine
and every emotion is nearby
crowding me with their strength
i'm so happy
of course its easy
to become overwhelmed
or so worried something will break
but i've found something concrete
something to believe in
wholeheartedly
i believe in us with all i can believe in
the big picture is what i try to focus on
the forever and ever part
the white moment that sparkles
starting a new chapter
binding two into one
tying a knot - the strongest kind
beginning a family
loving, overall
why wouldn't i be happy?

forever words

you make me excited
i smile bigger than i've ever done
i'm in love
and i'm in it deep
never been better, in fact
and things..
things are only getting better
growing stronger
tightly wound and binding
forever words
you left me breathless again
tonight as you walked away
i couldn't quit grinning
even after i closed the door
my mind kept traveling
to the soon months to come
how blessed am i?
wow
everything is perfect about this
i've never been more ready
i'm so in love

rambling comes easy when excited

there aren't words
but i'll give it a try

this is extraordinary
finally
the thing every little girl dreams about
from the time she can form a thought
is mine
the time has come
for certain, its in my hands
its real
everything is as beautiful as beauty comes
and its all mine for the taking
only small months and its set in stone
wow..

i think i've tried to act mature about this
like i'm used to this feeling
this intense, overwhelming sensation of excitement
but, come on
this is once in a lifetime
so i'm dropping that act
i'll let it show, now
no regrets as to how my heart is bursting
with every emotion
last night as i tried to sleep
i felt it stronger than ever
just how real this is
and just how anxious and eager i am

i'm ready, love
to take this on
hand in hand
my mind is in place
to prepare and get things done
all i need is you

still
there just aren't words
i'm too excited for such a limited vocabulary
i'm sure i'll always keep trying..

making plans

this talk..

those words

get me so excited

i can't believe it

these grown up things are happening

to me

we are talking long term

making plans

with eternities on our tongues

smiling and keeping eye contact

things are on their way to changing our lives

planning a future

one side by side

hand in hand

together

it gives me butterflies

because its real

it isn't a tale in my head

or a book to be read

its reality

its me and you

and we're talking about it

no more beating around that bush

we're planning on it

and you call it soon

this year, even

dreams are coming true this year

two lives will change

together

how neat is that?

daydreaming

i dream about it every night, now

if not in sleep - daydream

quite honestly, it consumes my whole heart, now

its all i want

its what i work for

what i pray for every morning and night

when i think of anything

its that thought

wondering (patiently, of course) when the day will arrive

perfectly at the door to my forevers

i'm more in love than i knew possible

better than fairy-tales, romantic movies and novels about love

what we created is better

don't you agree, darling?

its night time, now

so goodnight my love

i'll dream of you, again, tonight

Just Talking

Reminiscing. 

Do you remember the night we laid in my room for hours

Just talking

Maybe those are the moments you say we should try for

At least once a week

Just talking - getting deeper

I'd adore it, love

I love your face when you talk serious

The way your eyes radiate intensity

You mean what you say

And you'll keep the promises you make

I trust you with my full heart

And know this can only grow

Just talking

Pieces Eventually Make a Whole

Every time you go home
A piece of me you take.
But I know I'll be safe there, soon.
After all, all these pieces
Will someday make a whole
Bringing me there, next to you
Forever, if only.
Every day is one day closer
To the biggest day, you know?
I'll be patient
You'll be strong
And we won't give up
On this
Or each other.
You don't believe in Hollywood
So we'll make something better
While we build up this painting
Anticipating each tomorrow.
When you steal another piece of me..

Forever Bells

The sound has been loud in my ears the past few months

I always ignored it

Because these are the moments I can't let myself bring up

Hoping, daily, you would

But take your time, I need to learn to be patient, anyway

In the meantime, you can find me with my head in the clouds

Forever bells ringing loud and clear

Promising me the future I've been wishing for

you captivate me, still

nothing is more perfect

than the rush of butterflies i get

when you hug me from behind

feeling you breathing on my neck

as we talk, smile and laugh, together

i crave it

i adore it

i love it, of course

it never fails to send me spinning

and cause my heart to smile

nothing is more brilliant

than your beautiful blue eyes

i'm shocked, sometimes

that i've known you so long, now

and still get goosebumps

when i make eye contact with you

i crave it

i adore it

i love it, of course

i'm never anything short of twitterpaited

completely captivated by your radiance

terribly, incredibly in love with everything about you

Simpler Love

You make me warm inside as you send chills down my skin

To put it simply, you are perfect

Simpler, I love you

Its why I call you my Love Bird

The best emotion and all this new freedom from everything I needed

I crave you

The feeling you give my heart is the feeling we're all meant to find

You're every single kind of perfect

Perfectly wonderful

And my happiness, hero and earthly angel

You keep me warm whilst the goosebumps rage on

While the fire still burns

Sparks fly

Simply, my love bird, I adore you

I love, love, love you

A Little Girls Dream

I'm at that age. The age finally came. Here I am eagerly standing, nervously at the door to my future. The one I've been daydreaming of since I was young enough to craft a pretty fairy-tale. Can that time really be so close? Is this the year? Is it 2012 that will change so much? (for the best, of course) My heart is beating quickly and I think my veins are growing, somehow. I've never looked forward to something with so much passion. I've never wanted something so, so desperately. A dream come true that has only just begun and will undoubtably raise me to the highest level of cloud nine. Because the age has come and I'm old enough to know its real. The future is coming, I can taste it and graze it as it waits in front of me. It's happening, now.

The Fondest

i missed your goodbye kiss, tonight, and begin wrapped up tightly in your arms like i've grown so used to. i'll never take that for granted, again..if i ever did. i always knew those instances were special beyond words descriptions. i was happy, tonight. it was a good evening in the presence of my beautiful family, but i still felt like half of me was absent - the better half, of course. sure, the days you'll be gone aren't long, but when you've become so accustomed to being with someone every single day, theres a sensation of nakedness when they're away. you know what they say, though. absence makes the heart grow fonder. mine already has traveled leaps and bounds. my heart is so fond of you. i can't wait to spend forever in this if you want it as badly as i do. which i believe you do. so my heart is hopeful in this whole ordeal. i hope you're safe and warm, tonight. know that you are on my mind and i'm loving you, strongly. happy hunting, love.

Prince Charming

i saw it again, last night

as i lay in bed - it was there

its a half a second of a moment i see in the future

our future

you're standing, smiling looking to your right

looking as handsome as i've ever seen you

holding your lapel with your right hand

taking my breathe away

your hair is placed perfectly

making you look like a real life Prince Charming

you blink

and my heart flutters

i can only imagine how my soul would fly

when you look at me in that second

i'm soaring just thinking of it

the background behind you fills me up

i'm ecstatic and know this lasts forever

its beautiful

its that brief moment i see almost daily..

and i can't get enough of it

until i see it in real life