i'm an angel, i'm a devil i am sometimes in between. i'm as bad as it can get and good as it can be. sometimes i'm a million colors, sometimes i'm black and white. i am all extremes. try and figure me out you never can, there's so many things i am. i am special, i am beautiful, i am wonderful and powerful, unstoppable. sometimes i'm miserable, sometimes i'm pitiful, but thats so typical of all the things i am.

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Entirely Yours

You turn the lights on and you send the fireworks through the room - piercing my heart with your intense love every time. Your arms wrap around my body and I am the most comfortable I'll ever be. In this safety, I get lost in the moment. I am entirely yours. Captivated in the moment, our foreheads pressed together, I become overwhelmed with our love story. Can you believe we've come so far? Even lovelier, its only getting prettier. Tying the most valuable and important knot and keeping it tight for eternity. There is no one else I could possibly be so thrilled with. No other person could take your place. Love, you are my best friend and will be forever. In these moments, pressed against you I get flashes of futures. Happy times and sad times. Hard times and fancy-free days. Each part so near our outstretched hands. Oh, I love you. I'm so lost again. Lost inside of your perfect kiss. Swallowed up in the passion you have for me - who I am. And to think you say you are lucky! Everyone knows I'm the lucky one. The lights are off, again. You're in your bed and I'm in mine..wishing the day comes sooner when its our bed. When goodbyes aren't necessary, only goodnights. When I'll be calm, sleeping soundly knowing I will wake up to your perfect, beautiful blue eyes. The good news is: time passes. Like you say, each night is one night closer.

Meanwhile, lets get lost in another kiss and I'll dream about the future.

Sunday, September 23, 2012

become

my lips are still numb from this. quite honestly, it still feels like a dream most the time. am i really this lucky? this blessed? i am! today made me believe it even more than i already did. i'm in a state i've never been in before. the spirit has never been so strong. i know. i know. i know what i'm doing is right. i know the way i've chosen to live my life, mistakes and all, is the path laid out for me. i know that i have a bright future and that i have the potential to be someone apparently very incredible. its been brought to my attention that i will become someone far better than who i am now if i continue to press on in excellence. now that i think of it, i should try even harder, now. yes its overwhelming. its hard to believe i can be someone so grand - but if He knows i can do it - i'll believe it, too. its time to buckle up and become. really though..how did i get so lucky? me? little imperfect, boring me. wow. i'm still numb. my heart is still racing and i'm still caught up in the permanent smile and butterfly filled body. i know things couldn't be any more beautiful. how blessed am i?