i'm an angel, i'm a devil i am sometimes in between. i'm as bad as it can get and good as it can be. sometimes i'm a million colors, sometimes i'm black and white. i am all extremes. try and figure me out you never can, there's so many things i am. i am special, i am beautiful, i am wonderful and powerful, unstoppable. sometimes i'm miserable, sometimes i'm pitiful, but thats so typical of all the things i am.

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

it might stop

if i pretend like it doesn't hurt, then maybe it won't
maybe it will stop
i'll be comfortably numb
with feelings and the nagging want
but i won't hurt
i won't cry
i won't fall apart
maybe if i smile through it enough i'll smile for real
i'll be okay
perhaps some saving grace
will scoop my heart up
and calm it down so i no longer ache
maybe
but i'll never stop wanting it
i'll never quit praying
which unfortunately
means it won't stop hurting
if only the hurt
eventually paid off
fingers crossed
still
forever and always