learning how life plays out

i have new friends now. thanks to him, i've got the best ones imaginable and i've found the very best, closest friend in him. if you're going to spend forever with someone it should be that way, really. but i'll admit, sometimes i wish i didn't have to lose my old friends. because thats what happened. i lost them. and i learned forgiveness doesn't make things go back to how they once were. it doesn't fix everything and erase bad days. the clock keeps ticking and life doesn't pause long enough to pretend the past never happened. its bittersweet to see the photographs. those lovely girls smiling, looking beautiful as always. i'm happy to see them happy and still so close, but theres always the piece of me remembering when i used to be in the shot, too. funny how things change like that. but like i said, i have new friends - the best of the best, really. i wouldn't trade them for diamonds. but wouldn't it be sweet if i'd only have gained friends and not lost a single one?

You're Missed

So, I miss it. I miss the closeness we once had. The hours we'd spend together that most people would consider pointless--they were everything but that, right? I miss telling you every secret I need to tell. I miss seeing your car pull up in my driveway and seeing your blonde hair in curls waiting for me. I miss laughing deep into the night. I miss dancing. I miss solving problems together. I miss knowing everything about you and having your example heavy in my life. You were the girl I needed and I think I'd love you back. My best friend I miss.

little sister

in the long, long run - who really cares?

undoubtably it isn't the people you're inners are craving to be just like

the faces you're trying to match

the characteristics you spend hours in the mirror trying to find

little girl i wish you saw the beautiful you i see when i gaze at you

God made you, YOU because no one could do it better

in the long, long run - i'll care

i'll be your one last person who thinks the world of you

i'll be the rock with no judgement or criticism

i'll be the open arms and the shoulder to cry on when you crave it

the idols you've chosen to pick out of the cold garden are beautiful

they have a lot

but they aren't worth your time and tears

choose a new garden where the sun shines, constantly

plant your own seeds, grow your own path

be yourself

i'll be right beside you, always

a promise i'll never forget to keep

love who you are the way i love you

because

in my eyes you are leagues above even the very best

you are miles ahead and years beyond

you are you and there is no soul sweeter, better or more perfect

than you to be

you.