tired, overslept eyes
wake to an unknown sunday afternoon
last night felt like warm wind
and these sheets are too sweaty, now
he'll fall out of bed first
always more chipper than i can be
i wait for minutes to melt by
then unwillingly cover myself in water
its time to wake up, after all

thick liner and pressed flowers

i feel as if i should go back to what i consider my "roots" when it comes to spilling my soul onto pages or spilling it through scattered, frantic fingertips. i've strayed too far. tried too hard to conform. that has never been my style, just inquire of my educators as i grew up. i'll be me, thanks. old pictures. forced visions. description in a way i call just. the style i so desire - the things that i love. only a new chapter. time away has altered only small pieces. insignificant to you, greatly important to me. you know, the kind of writing that reminds you of classic red lipstick, thick black liner, pressed flowers and old, dusted novels. the comfort-food lyrical words. me.

...

i can't wait until we don't have to say goodbye at night
        only goodnight.

give it all

"i

i give it all

i trip and fall

for you

and i 

hope you wouldn't mind

just one more try

for something new

i need you

i need you

don't be shocked

if i cry

you've changed me

inside

you are the only reason

i pull through

i pull through"

-he is we

Just Talking

Reminiscing. 

Do you remember the night we laid in my room for hours

Just talking

Maybe those are the moments you say we should try for

At least once a week

Just talking - getting deeper

I'd adore it, love

I love your face when you talk serious

The way your eyes radiate intensity

You mean what you say

And you'll keep the promises you make

I trust you with my full heart

And know this can only grow

Just talking

i need you to fix me, again, love

seeds of insecurity are easy to plant
bravery seeds are harder
and i falter almost every time
accepting the fact that right now
i'm insecure

all i need to feel better
bluntly

is you

until the end of forever

and lucky for me
(and hopefully you feel the same)

...forever has no end

Rhymes

You are the wind thats underneath me

You are the fire that burns inside me

You are the reason that I smile

The reason I'd go the extra mile

Without you here, I'm nothing

You give my soul reason to sing

I'm in the debt of your sweet heart

You and I can't ever be apart

I am in this - forever with you

Oh my darling, I love you 

Pick Me Up

I need to hear your laugh right now

That sound is the tune that makes me happiest

And right now I need a pick me up

Sometimes some days aren't as bright as the others

But you have a way of lighting me up