Next Time Isn't Coming Soon Enough

You took my breath away, again. But this time was different. This time I felt deep emotions stir that I didn't know existed. This time everything I wished for came into the lime-light and I could see them actually occurring, one day. It may have been a long time waiting, and I kept you waiting long enough, but as we agreed - so worth it. You've got me anxiously awaiting next time. Yum. I wonder if you could read my thoughts as easily as they came to my mind. Its a flawless sort of beautiful. I love everything about it and from this point on, its only getting better. Wow. You took my breath away. Tonight was great.

Progress?

I feel like sometimes all I am is one big disappointment. It’s embarrassing and awkward to come by. It isn’t natural to approach people with this problem, either, so I bottle it up and let the liquids fill until I burst within the solitary comfort of my room. But it doesn’t feel comforting at all. It’s never been easy for me to open the front door and allow another pair of ears to hear the cries from my lips and the worries on my mind. I’m sheltered because I created myself this way. I carefully crafted myself to be dependent on myself but honestly, its never worked. I needed someone every step of the way. It was always only wishful thinking up until recently. Even now, I know there is that soul that wants me to be open up completely, but its still new, scary territory. I’m trying so hard to break down my walls stuck together with stubborn behavior and selfish shyness. A work in progress is never really done. But it progresses, or so I'm told.

The Sunglasses Song

You left your sunglasses on my fireplace

And I'm taking it as a sign that we're gonna go places

'Cause if you didn't want to see me again

You would have taken them home

You leave a stamp on my heart

And a kiss on my face

You lift my feet off the ground

I'm all over the place 

You make me happy

You make me smile

It hasn't happened in a heck of a while

Because 

You are everything I want

You are everything I need

Ooo, you're handsome, too

Aaa, I like you a lot

You hold my hand when we walk to the door

You got, you got me always wishing for more

And your blue eyes leave me hypnotized

You're my lovely

My daily surprise

You leave a stamp on my heart

And a kiss on my face

You lift my feet off the ground

I'm all over the place

You leave me breathless

You blow me away

I wanna stay here everyday

Because

You are everything I want

You are everything I need

Ooo, you're handsome, too

Aaa, I like you a lot

I love your smile

The way you make me laugh

I love how you can see

Through all my broken glass
I love this part
All the words I hear
One day I'll tell you
All those words I feel

Because you are...

I was sure it was a shot in the dark. A target I'd never hit. A goal purely unreachable.

But I aimed true. I hit the target. I reached the goal.

waiting

patience

never has this seemingly small world been one of my valued virtues. a daily struggle. a hard moment to wait out. its when i discover myself wishing for something that has yet to happen in my little sheltered life. i find myself in a state of mind where all i want is that large, white moment. i want it so badly. i have found every other piece, i want the rest of it to fall together, now. finish this puzzle and make the next with the one i'm meant to. the figure always on my eager, impatient mind. but all there is, is time, i guess. so patience i must practice. because this moment i'm waiting for is so, so worth the wait. i hope the figure knows it, too.

hello's

words willfully escaping, floating through the air we breathed together as we lay cuddled underneath the ceiling. i'm happy here. you seem to be happy, too. to me this is something that should last for always. our beautiful tale is riveting, always leaving me more cheerful. i never enjoy seeing you go, but our goodbyes are delicious. and they make for the possibility of the daily hello's i look forward to so much throughout my entire day. there's a thought rolling around my mind, lately. life is about to get trickier for me. but i know that you aren't going anywhere - you're here and you aren't leaving me. you never will. you're here for me and when you utter those flawless words, i believe each one that flow through your teeth. its magical, you know. so beautiful, so real. so right.

You Know Me

You know me.

And you're the first to do so.

You've studied me and figured me out.

My mannerisms

My characteristics

My faces

and insecurities.

You know them.

You know me.

Because of that - you've won me.

I'm yours, of course.

I always have been.

You know what to say

When words hurt.

You know how to hold me

When I ache.

You know how to find the part of my heart

That listens and trusts you

And speak straight to it.

You know me so well.

Finally someone cared enough to.

You've figured me out.

You broke through the walls.

You cracked the shell.

You learned

Listened

Watched

Asked questions

and remembered.

Now

You know me.