The Real Adventure

don't look over your shoulder - thats only the past calling you back
it brought you here, it raised you, right
but tonight i'm praying you'll face forward
its these cryptic words i catch myself tangled in
effortlessly
don't hold the hand of the tempting one, there
i promise mine won't release the grasp of yours
some things aren't destined to be broken
intertwined, forever
perfectly how life was intended to be lived
forget about what stops you
focus on what drives you to make Him proud
lose yourself in what you want
not what you think you need
who cares how other people live
this is our lives - not theirs
sometimes your wants need satisfaction
but never lose sight of the bigger picture
remember those who'll never deceive you
never ask you to be anyone you're not
hold tight to this rope
anchor yourself to mine
we can float, together
just promise me you'll always stand proud
or at least try
and when you falter..remember me
keep in mind i'm here to build you back up
i'll always try
and continually get better at helping you remember
remembering how wonderful you are
to me
and to everyone you meet
something special beyond the dictionaries vocabulary
don't turn your eyes behind you
thats only what you know
its the unknown that really holds an adventure, anyway
jump in
face this lifetime with your chest held high
your eyes upward
and your smile brightly glowing 'cross your face
your hand in mine
trusting that it gets better with time
and i'm not giving up on you

Singing

I think I want to sing to you. I want to sing then cuddle in your arms as I remind you how wonderful you are. I'll never let you forget how I feel about you. I'm taking your challenge, you know. Just watch and see - I am stepping out of my comfort zone. Its about to get real deep and personal in our lives. But I imagine that is very good for almost husbands and wives. Can you believe its only ten more days? I will do this, soon. Prove my words aren't just talk. I'll be the one always there for you. Always there to be your shoulder to cry on and your heart to confide in. I'm yours, after all. I so love you.

"Off"

Right now I just need to hurt - but I can't tell you why, exactly.
All I know is my heart is heavy right now and I want to cry then have you grab me and let me bury myself in your chest while you nurse me back to health.
Life has been absolutely brilliant, lately. So I guess that would make sense that I'd fall, finally.
But my wishful thinking allowed me to think that everything was going to stay so breezy and flawless.
Or at least a level I could handle.
I can't handle the level I'm at now.
Somehow I'll be saved.
Things will fall into place as usual. Right now, I'm just caught up in an ache in my heart I can't explain.
Nothing makes sense and I can't keep track of my thoughts.
I wish you could feel my insides and understand what I mean when I say I don't know why I'm "off".
Maybe then you'd get an idea of why I'm fragile and why I am so...different.
Am I really as different as I feel?
Hormones are unable to explain, it seems.
And here I am..I was really wishing writing out whatever this ache is would help.
But its still there just as strong.
Its time to sleep I guess. Then I can forget about this and let tomorrow take over.
Now if only sleeping were as easy as it is to speak about.
Goodnight, tonight.
Pray tomorrow sheds more light.

it only gets greater

you sweep me off my feet when you catch me by surprise with your lips on mine, wrapping your arms around my body, taking me home. my heart begins racing as you whisper that you love me. you, my love, are the very definition of wonderful. you're beyond it. my clothes smell like you still and i can't stop myself from smelling them - smiling. when you run your hand up and down my back, or your hands on my hips.. i can't concentrate on anything else but how fortunate i am to be here with you right here. mine. soon, mine forever and ever. i wish you could feel how i feel at night when i think about you. or maybe, hopefully, you already feel the same. this love we are in is special. full of everything absolutely spectacular. i'm in constant awe of my luck and in a daydream when i look at the beauty of your face, body and heart. you've the sweetest heart the world will ever touch. and somehow, by some miracle you loved me enough to ask me to be yours for the rest of time. to think i'll spend the rest of eternity getting swept off my feet by your loving self is overwhelmingly, captivatingly incredible. i wouldn't change a thing. we won't change a thing. i don't know how it gets better than this, but they keep telling me it only gets greater.