become

my lips are still numb from this. quite honestly, it still feels like a dream most the time. am i really this lucky? this blessed? i am! today made me believe it even more than i already did. i'm in a state i've never been in before. the spirit has never been so strong. i know. i know. i know what i'm doing is right. i know the way i've chosen to live my life, mistakes and all, is the path laid out for me. i know that i have a bright future and that i have the potential to be someone apparently very incredible. its been brought to my attention that i will become someone far better than who i am now if i continue to press on in excellence. now that i think of it, i should try even harder, now. yes its overwhelming. its hard to believe i can be someone so grand - but if He knows i can do it - i'll believe it, too. its time to buckle up and become. really though..how did i get so lucky? me? little imperfect, boring me. wow. i'm still numb. my heart is still racing and i'm still caught up in the permanent smile and butterfly filled body. i know things couldn't be any more beautiful. how blessed am i?