The Way

You're so good. The way everyone else's wants and needs are placed before your own. The way you have a passion for the people you love and care for. The way you have this stunning eye contact that sends my heart into paradise. The way you wrap your arms around my body at the exact time I need a hug, most. You're so good. The way you are so wonderfully perfect.

Just Talking

Reminiscing. 

Do you remember the night we laid in my room for hours

Just talking

Maybe those are the moments you say we should try for

At least once a week

Just talking - getting deeper

I'd adore it, love

I love your face when you talk serious

The way your eyes radiate intensity

You mean what you say

And you'll keep the promises you make

I trust you with my full heart

And know this can only grow

Just talking

Pieces Eventually Make a Whole

Every time you go home
A piece of me you take.
But I know I'll be safe there, soon.
After all, all these pieces
Will someday make a whole
Bringing me there, next to you
Forever, if only.
Every day is one day closer
To the biggest day, you know?
I'll be patient
You'll be strong
And we won't give up
On this
Or each other.
You don't believe in Hollywood
So we'll make something better
While we build up this painting
Anticipating each tomorrow.
When you steal another piece of me..

i need you to fix me, again, love

seeds of insecurity are easy to plant
bravery seeds are harder
and i falter almost every time
accepting the fact that right now
i'm insecure

all i need to feel better
bluntly

is you

until the end of forever

and lucky for me
(and hopefully you feel the same)

...forever has no end

This is Gross

Its like every fake thing was bottled up and now, let out, but for no reason. My mind can't keep up with the way my heart is racing - my emotions holding tight to the reigns. I want this to be over with so I can really enjoy things. No more of this half-hearted stuff. I want the weight off my chest, gone, and the hole in my thoughts, filled. But right now, thats too much to ask and not even the strongest doses of medication fix that. Its the price you pay, everyone tells me. I know that, but when the moments here, theres no logical thinking available. A pick-me-up would be nice, but I don't know if the usual would work, this time. Its like a stubbornness you can't shake. Eventually, hopefully even tomorrow, things will even out, again. The chemicals in my body will remember the peaceful way to navigate inside me. For now, I will just fight it. Or lay here on the couch. Probably the latter.

Forever Bells

The sound has been loud in my ears the past few months

I always ignored it

Because these are the moments I can't let myself bring up

Hoping, daily, you would

But take your time, I need to learn to be patient, anyway

In the meantime, you can find me with my head in the clouds

Forever bells ringing loud and clear

Promising me the future I've been wishing for

lay beside me

i'll lay here if you lay beside me

 i don't like doing things alone

 after all this time with you near me

 i think i'm realizing you are home.